Justin Baldoni says he had a ‘near breakdown’ filming this scene of ‘It Ends With Us’
Justin Baldoni says he had a “lonely” experience while co-starring and directing “It Ends With Us.”In a recent episode of the “How to Fail With Elizabeth Day” podcast, the actor and director of the film said there were moments when he “would just have to leave” the set. Baldoni not only brought Colleen Hoover’s megahit book to life as director, but he also portrayed the troubled and abusive Ryle, who marries Blake Lively’s character, Lily. The actor told host Elizabeth Day that it took him time to process and leave behind his complicated character after filming ended. “Directing is a very lonely job, I’ll just be very candid. Because you are kind of at the top of this totem pole. In your moments of quiet, everybody has a thousand questions for you and also nobody wants to disturb you,” Baldoni said. “And you don’t really have many people to talk to, and you can’t necessarily share your anxiety or your nervousness about something because you’re also the leader.”Justin Baldoni stars in “It Ends With Us.”Nicole Rivelli / Sony PicturesCalling it “a very strange place to be,” he explained how also portraying a tumultuous character like Ryle affected him. “Let alone directing while trying to play a character who does the things that Ryle does in the movie, so there were moments in the filming of this where I would just have to leave,” he said. “I’d have to remove myself and go shake it out. I mean, I’ve done a lot of somatic therapy so there were times when I was actually just shaking.”Baldoni recalled having a “near breakdown” after filming a scene where Ryle has Lily’s phone and finds a phone number from someone else. While Ryle, he said, is “very jealous,” heartbroken and angry, “he doesn’t harm her, but you can see in his eyes how dangerous he is. After that scene, I had a near breakdown. And I had to leave and just cry and shake because there was so much pain.” Baldoni shared that it was hard to have Ryle’s trauma live in his body, “creating that insecurity and the pain and the feeling that you shouldn’t actually be (feeling).”“That was very hard and that took a few months,” he said of releasing those feelings. “I had dreams as him for a while, and it lived in my body, but I think for the most part, he’s out.”Justin Baldoni and Blake Lively as Ryle and Lily.Nicole Rivelli / Sony PicturesThe release of “It Ends With Us,” which will arrive on Netflix Dec. 9, was met withcriticisms and controversy surrounding what some called the romanticizing of domestic abuse. Some domestic violence survivors told TODAY.com that their criticisms include the lack of a trigger warning and resources as well as promotional content that seemed to depict the film as lighthearted. (Sony Pictures Entertainment, the film’s distributor, declined to comment on the criticism at the time.)In the podcast interview, Baldoni briefly touched on how he wanted to approach the film with caution when it came to the subject matter.“I just didn’t want to re-traumatize the majority of my audience, which is why I was advocating for a trigger warning at the front and things like that,” he said. “But those are certain battles that you can’t always win.”It was also rumored that there was cast drama behind the scenes of the making of “It Ends With Us,” specifically between Baldoni and Lively, who is credited as a producer. The two co-stars didn’t do any press together and didn’t take photos together at the premiere. The “Jane the Virgin” star previously told TODAY.com in an interview published Aug. 9 that directing “It Ends With Us” was an “extreme challenge.”“Every movie is a miracle,” he said at the time. “And then, of course, you’re navigating complex personalities and trying to get everybody on the same page with the same vision. And mistakes are always made, and then you figure out how to move past them.” He later told “Entertainment Tonight“ that Lively should be the one to direct a potential film adaptation of the book’s sequel, “It Starts With Us.” At this time, there’s no official word on if there will be a second film.